Romantic Heart Break

So my dear readers, my whirl wind romance is over before it could really begin...
It's my fault, I always let things go rather then fight... I guess it's my way of protecting myself...

I don't honestly know what I'm doing in love, I've never had much luck... I've been manipulated so many times that it's easy to just blame the other person and pretend they're one of the bad guys then to admit I have a problem...

It didn't matter because I was so selfish I let things fall through the cracks... I am too much a perfectionist to let things go...

I am too "tough" to let any of my real feelings and problems show... and, because of that, none of them get fixed...

I messed up with someone I've loved for a very long time and possibly still do...
But they probably don't know that because lately I've been bottling so much pain up the best I could manage was heartless bitch,...

I don't know how I always screw things up so bad, but I'm damn good at it...

I hope you read this... But if not then maybe it's for the best...
Move on and be happy with someone who can love you better than I obviously have...

I love you...

No daily anythings today guys... Don't have it in me...
Goodbye for now,,,